comment on Cal's blog

Cal posted something on his blog the other day that I find to be incredibly true and incredibly interesting. He said: "There's also Jenny who somehow seems no longer a Nebraskan while she's wearing purple, but is certainly not somebody I would consider a "Wildcat" yet. But she's a friend, so the color doesn't matter."

That attitude captures the essence of the transition I have faced- not in wearing purple and cheering for the purplecats :) but in identifying with K-State Navs at Main Event and feeling the tension in general between not being quite a wildcat but not being quite a husker. Sometimes it feels like I don't belong anywhere but sometimes it feels like I belong everywhere. It is an interesting experience.

Anways, that is random but I wanted to post it. :)

Main Event

I got back from Main Event a couple of hours ago (yes you read that right- Kansas is a stinkin long way away from cedar falls) and I wanted to let you all know that it was amazing. It never ceases to amaze me how the Lord uses the Main Event conference in the lives of students. I talked to many students who made some serious decisions about following Jesus this weekend and it was REALLY exciting.

I want to share more but I am dog tired. Please be praying about where I will go on my EDGE summer missions experience. There are 6 options: Indonesia, Bulgaria, South Africa, Estonia, East Asia, and Central Asia.

Thanks! May God's grace fill you!

Good stuff

For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it. Mark 8:35

Really neat day

You guys, God has really blessed life and ministry the past few days. To give you a small snapshot of life- I have probably had 5 good one on ones since I have lived in Manhattan. Three of them were yesterday.

I feel like I am trying to minister in a wilderness. I have never in my life spent time with so many nonbelievers that are so uninterested and not hungry. I feel like a lot of what I have been doing is developing an overwhelming amount of relationships, developing trust and breaking up very very hard hearts. I have shared the gospel many times probably on average 2-3 times a week and had little positive response.

But yesterday was a different story. God gave me a lot of encouragement. My first appointment was with a girl who just came to Christ a week or so ago. We hung out, had fun and talked about the Lord and how to grow. It was cool.

My second appointment was with a girl who is Native American and has those religious beliefs. She has been coming to an evangelistic Bible study that I am doing on campus and she frequently makes comments about how COMPLETELY lost that she is. Her concept of God and well everything is different from mine. So, I took her to the mall and as we are walking from store to store I undfold the gospel story from Genesis to Jesus. It was so neat to share with someone who had not heard it before. I told her about the sacrifices that God demanded in the Old testament and she responded in shock and then when Jesus entered the scene she responded with awe. We ended our time talking about how she is moving from not interested at all to interested so she can "learn more." You can pray for her and for me. What a neat time though.

Finally, I have freshman bible study last night. It was rough because the girls had a stressful week but I hung out with a girl afterwards and it was really great. I felt like she was vulnerable with me and that I got to help her fight through stuff in her life. I was so excited to hear about the things the Lord is teaching her.

Anyways, that was sweet. I am really learning that God is going to have to work if he wants me to have a ministry.

Tonight I had a conversation with a girl who is adimately (how do you spell that?) disinterested in pursuing God with her college career. I invited her to Main Event and she said possibly 10 times that she does not have time for or interest in "something like that" in college. She wants to have a life and party on the weekends and do rowing team and everything else. It made me really sad. We have a good friendship though so I hope that goes somewhere.

Anyway that is a more detailed snapshot of "life on the edge." I am going to NE this weekend because it is KSU's fall break. I want to see whoever wants to see me. :) I CANT WAIT!

twice in one month...doing good

I can't believe that I only blogged twice last month. I now understand why people don't post as frequently as I would like them to. I was without internet for 2 weeks and just plain forgot. Such is life.

Life in Manhattan has been ROUGH. I have gone through a tough faith time and have really battled a little depression and loneliness. I had a real short "I love everything about Manhattan" stage and then the reality of life after college set in.

I really think that I am starting to come out of it though and that even in the midst of it I am clinging to God. Sorry this is so short but the library guy just asked me to get off the computer.

Next weekend is fall break!